I haven't been paying attention lately. Environmental habituaton has set in as it's been 5 months in Swansea. 5 fantastic, surprising just-as-I-wanted-it months.  But lately I've been so caught up in worrying about what comes next and what I'm not able to do. Worrying is like a rash, you just can't not itch it, and then it gets more and more itchy and then that's all you're doing, just itching and scratching your worries until you look like a monkey. Worrying consumes me sometimes and I have to stand back and realise what I'm doing. 

When I allow myself to stand back then I realise how lucky lucky I am, how hard I worked to into this course, and that there have been countless times in my life where I didn't know what was coming around the next corner and that, something . always. works out. I was up early the other morning and the clouds were stunning. Just pure and simple, and I remembered where I was and how much this place still amazes me. I love it here. I love this. 

Also, a successful first meeting with staff at the Orchard Centre for my dissertation, walking on the beach with Graeme, seeing little school girls dressed up for St.David's day, a new haircut and simple moments of pure goodness have helped to clear my mind and get me back on track. 

Thursday I'm being adult and having a dinner party. I've invited my dearest and nearest which means cooking for 5, more than I've done before. It's something that's way over due and something that I'm really looking forward to. I love being a hostess, spoiling people who are good to me and drinking cheep white wine. Also, the fact that I have these great people in my lives right now, that I live in a cute little home and can do all this... that is a blessing. 

Also, I got an essay back from Wood today for neuroscience and got a 70! I was so excited, my first distinction. 

I felt like hugging strangers, but thank God I didn't, because that can be a little awkward once you realise what you're doing.